Monday, May 21, 2007
* jumping into gemini *
It's Gemini's turn on the zodiac.
..i was browing on yahoo just a while ago when i suddenly came across one of their features for today, the Geminis. There's the horoscope of course and some of the famous Gemini celebrities. check out what i enjoyed:
Gemini May 21 - June 21
Monthly Love for May, 2007
Provided by Astrology.com
Provided by Astrology.com
One of the best things about you, when it comes to romantic communications, is that you're able to cut out all of the small talk and get right to the point. This is great, and it's a skill that will come in handy on the 1st and 2nd, when you're talking to somebody who really pushes all the right romantic buttons. What's not always so great about your directness is that you sometimes rush things -- while it's good to get right to the point, it does take time to figure out if a particular relationship is the right one for you. This month, work on slowing down. Get to know them a little bit before you make any big decisions. Hold off with your directness for a little while. By the 6th and 7th, you have a great opportunity to take things slower, when somebody you think is very cute suggests speeding things up. The 13th and 14th, a problem could arise that will make you glad that you're spending time with this person before committing your whole self to them. By the 19th, you could be feeling ready to share more of your private space. Go ahead, if you think it's the right thing to do. The 23rd and 24th, whether you want to stay or go, be gentle with them. The 29th and 30th, finish the month with a little more straight talk.
Famous Geminis
Angelina Jolie, June 4; kabirthday ko!
Marilyn Monroe, June 1
Naomi Campbell, May 22
other celebs with no picturs, i was too lazy to get theirs na..:
Brooke Shields, May 31
Anna Kournikova, June 7
Natalie Portman, June 9
Johnny Depp, June 9
Paul Mccartney, June 18
Paula Abdul, June 19
Nicole Kidman, June 20
..twas fun knowing they're geminis too. =) im not a zodiac kind of person really, i dont actually believe them, funny knowing it though, it matches some of my personalities. aun, 12 days before my birthday, and angelina jolie's too. ttfn!
* last day *
..hooray for my last day at work. haay, last day na nga lang pro it seems na pinakamahirap na task ang nabigay sken ngayon,. haay.. excited nko sa camp. =)
"The hardest part about walking away from someone is the part where you have to realize that there is not a single chance for that someone to run after you"
* my celebrity look-alikes *
..beyonce knowles? haha! unbelievable.
Sunday, May 20, 2007
* Quotable Quotes *
~ i wish forgetting my feelings for someone was easy as digging a hole in the backyard, and burying it there, & leaving a cross over it to remind of how beautiful it once was. but it could never be like that. the truth is forgetting this feelings is very much like digging my very own grave and burying myself alive..~ it is always painful to know that someone is irrevocably gone and all that's left are memories of beautiful days gone by. sometimes it boggles my mind why people fall in love, then say goodbye; why they cannot belong forever when at first they can never seem to part.
~ i bid him goodbye like it's nothing while all i want to do is hold on forever but i let go, smiled and walked away.. then cried all the way home because i know it will never be the same, because try as i might, i cant make someone love me, sometimes we have to set them free and let go, that's when love hurts most of all..
~ i drank and got hangover, i smoked and i coughed, i fought abd got wounds. there's one thing i hate the most but i still do it, it's when i loved and got hurt. then i stopped drinking so i didnt gt hangovers anymore,stopped smoking, coughing stopped too. i stopped fighting and the wounds healed.. do you think i should stop loving too?
~ it's not DESTINY that determines LOVE it is CHOICE. our so called dastiny is a lie.. RELATIONSHIPS lasts long not because they're destined to, but because two BRAVE people made a choice - to keep it, to fight for it, & to work for it. Meanwhile, other relationships fail not because they're destined to fail, they failed because one of the two or both, made the choice - to set eaach other free. :((
~it's hard to accept that the person i love most can't love me.. i don't wanna give up but i have to. i wanna fight but the pain weakens me. how can i truly be happy when my own happiness has left me?
~ sometimes i need to be deaf for the sake of somebody. i need to be insensitive to lessen the pain. i need to smile for the streght of others and sometimes, i just need to stop because im tired of everything.
~ part of me wants to hate him, forget him.. forget everything about him, but.. the STRONGER part of me misses him, wants to be in his arms holding me tight till the pain fades away..
* excited *
..haay,as usual, it's crappy monday, and it's my 2nd to the last day at work. yey! hooray for that..wala lang, napapagod nrin kse ako, and nahihirapan, pro the qorking experince is all worth it. =) my boss actually thought na nung friday ung last day ko, and if i had known that she thought that way, hindi na sana ko pumasok ngaun..it feels like im here for nothing din naman eh, kse nagiinternet lang din nmn ako minsan so i felt like ako ung nakakalamang sa kanila,and ayoko nun. (goodgirl ata ko,)dapat parang commensurate lang ang work at pay. =) aun, 2 days nlng, camp na. woohoo, i couldnt be more excited. wala lang, kse prng it's my wind up time to be with God,myself and my friends of course. ang saya saya. haay.. ttfn!~13 days before my birthday. o_0
Friday, May 18, 2007
* mood: sleepy, caffeine drowning. *
..haay, tinatamad akong mag-work. dahil sa sobrang inaantok nko, bka masungitan ko lang ung mga callers ko,. grabeh. gusto ko ng hazelnut cappuchino. :((
Thursday, May 17, 2007
* go-see.solarium *
..i like the new skin and look of my blog. :) ang gloomy. anyways, galing akong Go-see kahapon, sana makuha ako.. *fingers crossed* and sa SOLARIUM, man.. ang sarap magpray dun. :) il definitely come back.
anyways, picture muna.. starbucks with my sibs.
* not so healthy dinner *
..late na kami dumating ni achi and wala na kaming nadatnang food..aun nagtyaga sa balot at blueberry cheesecake.. di bale faves ko nmn parehas. .wink.
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
* ..wish upon a star. *
..ok so it's only 19 days before my birthday, and i dont really know if im happy or not that it was bound to come. as for sa mga nakakakilala kase sken..alam nmn nila kung anong gusto ko sa birthday ko,. isa lang naman..at un na un. you know, all my life i have never experienced the happiest i can say na birthday ko, except last year. it's actually kung hindi umuulan, ng malakas at mastuck sa mall na brownout, e usually im at home lang garnering greetings from friends and whoever remembers that day. pinakamasaya na ung last year, not because it's my eighteenth birthday,but.basta. hehe..anyways, gagawa ako ng wishlist ko. =)
My birthday Wishlist.Ü♥
1. My ultimate wish, ______. yes, its you.
2. New phone, probably Nokia 6300 or 5300.
3. Mango bravo cake from contis
4. Starbucks water bottle, ung parang pang kids.
5. Nivea Lip gloss
6. hollywood shades
7. starbucks GCs
8. hugs for the hurting heart - book eto,i just forgot the author
9. a hug from everyone that i love
10. a smile from everyone who greets me
..uhm,yan nlng muna, il make dagdag nlng if may maisip pko. *wink*
..if FATE had been good at us, it could have been 11 beautiful months.
Friday, May 11, 2007
* ... *
~ il y a beaucoup de im de choses a effrayé de, mais..
une vie sans vous m'effraie plus..
* ~bored. *
..it's saturday. and im off to work.. nakakabore when i could just be at home loafing around or even hanging out with my friends, or nsa church tumutulong sa fund raising. haayy,,,i guess il be burning my butt off here, waiting for 5:30 to come..huhu..Tuesday, May 08, 2007
..bigla akong nalungkot when suddenly someone asked me how "he" was. :(( *sob*Sunday, May 06, 2007
You know, I've never really understood what happened between us...how and why we came to this - i never really thought that all this time, i am - fighting a losing battle. i tried to communicate, i tried all my best to let you feel that despite what you've done, i still care.. and that im still waiting, waitig to be with you again. but i cant understand why and how you fell out of love. and now i dont know what to do, now that you still hadn't talked to me. i cant barely describe what im feeling, but it's eating me. it's just so sad that your love has to go away,but then i understand. afterall,i was the one to blame for all of this in the first place. i know i was the one who made you that way.
the past is really one thing that i would cherish for the rest of my life. wonderful moments ive had with you, they sure are wonderful and i had to admit that i still will reminisce all those. the times when we're spending a lot of time together, talking, eating, watching movies, we would always choose to closely sit next to each other with your arm around my shoulders and my hand on your lap...we would hold hands and be very affectionate with each other...we even had private jokes that we didn't want to explain or share with anyone else...and every moment we spent together was fun even if we weren't doing anything at all.
i want you to know that.. I loved you with all my heart, and love you still, but I'm tired - I'm tired of fighting for a love that has lived its moment...of living on memories that are special only to me...
Thank you for everything...for taking away my insecurities; for showing me that people do love me for who I am; for making me understand that people I love will hurt me but it doesn't necessarily mean they love me any less, and that when they do hurt me, it is possible to forgive, forget and move on with life; for making me realize it is possible to trust again after getting hurt. Thank you too for giving me the most painful lesson in my life thus far...that the moment you love someone you have given him the capacity to hurt you, that how much you hurt is equal to how much you have loved, that getting hurt is proportionate to having too many expectations. Thank you for accepting me and allowing me enough room to grow at the same time...for inspiring me and making me want to become a better person. Thank you for being there when I needed you - for the silly and the serious moments; for making me laugh, smile and cry all at the same time; for holding my hand when I'm nervous or scared; for giving me a hug and wiping away my tears when I'm sad or confused; for never failing to make me feel better no matter how down or how depressed I've become; for unselfishly sharing my joys and my happiness. Most of all, thank you for making me feel special, for making me feel loved, even if it was so ambiguous and so fleeting I was hardly conscious about it.
For now, I'm letting you go, I'm letting us go. I've finally accepted that this is the way things would have to be, that i should allow us both to be free enough to seek whatever it is that will truly make us happy. Even if it isn't with each other. but if ever, you change your mind, and the feelings for me suddenly came back, don't hesistate to come back, for i will still be waiting..because i know that what we had back then was real.
I must admit you probably won't be too far away from my thoughts, and that thinking of you will still bring that tinge of sadness and regret. But I'm okay. I will be okay. Loving again may take awhile though. For now, I'd concentrate on healing myself, on making myself complete on my own - so that when the right one finally comes, I'll be able to give myself to him as I would have wanted to give myself to you.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
* voila! *
..haay,kakatapos lng ng much awaited vacation ko from work..
Friday, April 27th
i got back to school, (which i missed soo much) only to find out na they're not pre-advising students not until on maybe the last week of May,. Pro it's ok, i got to hang out with my friends nmn that day,.
Saturday, April 28th
FONTANA baby, haay..it was scourging heat but it was scourging F-U-N. though medyo i stayed alert dahil "meron" ako that day, but nagswim pdin ako, haha! alert dhil bka maging red sea ung mga pool..hehe, anyways, ive had fun camwhorig with friends and churchmates..aun, i find it very relaxing since sobrang nasubsob ako sa work the past weeks.. =)
Sunday, April 29th
i just stayed at home, and watched HEROES the whole afternoon pagkagaling sa church.. bonding with dad and nathan.
Monday, April 30th
work day. pumasok ako only to find out na maraming absent, haha.. because they're pushing they're vacation na to the limit since it's holiday the following day.. aun, internet lang ako the whole day dahil wala si boss. and oh ive got my first paycheck too. =) in cold cash.. hehe..
Tuesday, May 1st
woohoo, holiday. naglaba kami nina mommi dahil umalis ung helper nmn..aun,ive gone to 168 to look for slacks, and ive bought one.. and spandex, and a blouse ive been dying to have since december which good thing meron pa,.and a cute bag which is a big steal at only 100 bucks..cool dibh.. *winkies*
..aun, im soo into Grey's anatomy lately..i mean the whole vacation, season three nko,. woohoo1 xo i havnt finished it since they've called to report for work na last month, so un,,. im planning na tapusin un maybe afetr i resign from work.. whew.. excited.. it doesnt get anybetter than this.. smoochies to you all. Ü♥
..i answered the grey's anatomy quiz while blurbing onto the site (while working, sideline muna..hehe..) aun, ive got Meredith, which was kinda ok rather than having Cristina's rough edge..hndi ko macopy coz it was in flash form para makita pati ung pic ni meredith however, here's what it said:
You're Meredith
you dont always make the right choices, but you get points for trying, bouncing right back andstarting over. for being so "dark and twisty", you hace a surprisingly sunny outlook on life. you'requick to jump into new relationships but just as quick to jump out. after the example your parentsset, learning to trust someone else takes just about everything you've got.
..cool dibah. ~still missing someone,.