Better days are ahead if you let them.

Strolling along in school with two of my stable friends with their boyfriends, when few of my classmates happened to pass by..

Classmate: ‘oh tin, ikaw lang?! kuha ka na ulit ng partner mo.’

i just smiled and said: ‘ok lang! haha..”

It’s pretty weird, but I know it’s factual. For the first time, it felt good to say that. It felt happy. It felt REAL. That it had no dry feeling, no self pity, no fake smiles that I had to show, because without it, it just wouldn’t be me. A sudden gush of emotions came rushing in, I was silent for a while.. in deep thinking. The thoughts, the ideas, the reasons that have become transparent.. They all felt real. All this, the realities that bit me hard, are just one of the few lessons I have to learn, and it is because I need to grow. I was feeling weird yet I know it was right. That maybe, I really am the one that deprives myself to be free, to be happy.. that maybe I am, after all, a good company to myself, and that I don’t need someone to complete me. To be alone but happy.

I’m moving.

Yes, I’m really moving, and I couldn’t be happier. J it’s true indeed, that one of the greatest feelings in the world is feeling good after you’ve been feeling awful, after you’ve been feeling hurt. It feels good, sooo good J to realize that I’ve been strong all along. The last one had done enough damage to last for a lifetime, and so I’m giving up.

“When you can’t remember when you’re hurt, that’s when you’re healed.”

Perhaps I’m not yet there, maybe I’m not even ready.. but I will be, soon enough when my TRUE PRINCE would come and get me. The one He will send to bring me my rainbows again. As for now, I’m enjoying my company.. Soul-searching and moving. I’ve been into sorts of pain, and I’m picking up the pieces and finally remembering where I’ve left them.

And to myself, you’re stronger this time attagirl, you’re one of a kind :)

~bises.

‘Coz tonight the world begins again.

“The moment she asked herself what it all meant, the answers seemed to supply themselves in unexpected ways, as though they had been awaiting the question from her all this time”