..it's my sixth day at work. (yeah, im working. *grin* ) and medyo i'm feeling a bit at ease with it na. i dont want to be a bum at home kse kaya i opted to work kahit medyo not so malaki ang compensation. it's ok, it's experience.Ü
dapat kse tga uurong nko dito, kse unang una, the place is not so accessible. malayo smin kea i have to wake up early to beat my 8:30am sked, and only god knows how i hate waking up early (that's why im a bit tall. hehe..) tapos considering my situation, i'm SINGLE.. biyahe could get very very lonely,. =( uhm, enough with that.. and being "bago" too really sucks..
i remember my first day.. of which sobrang biglaan, Ms. nika the HR aast. texted me and asked me to come back and bring my medical, so akala ko nmn may interview pa or something, and in the back of my mind, ndi na dapat tlga ko tutuloi. but then i was so surprised wen i asked her.. "uhm kelan po ba ko magstrt?!" then she said "ngaun na.."
aun, hindi ko tuloi ntapos ung commitment ko sa DVBS, which truly sucks. e i have no choice nrin,. aun, my first day had been a real bum. i wanted to go home, i waited from 830 to 3pm sa boss ko, and grabeh antagal!!! and to think ako lang magisa sa testing room so ive got no one to talk to, wala din akong load kya hindidn ako mktext, grabeh tlga.. nasulat ko to sa sobrang ka boring-an:
..haay, first time kong kumain magisa,, grabeh, parang gusto ko nalang matunaw, magevaporate at lahat para mawala nako at maerase na s earth. ganito pla ang feeling ng first day at work..unexplainable. parang gusto ko nalang umuwi.. medyo oldies na kase dito eh, at ung iba namang hindi pa oldies eh, nevermind... grabeh, hindi masarap ang feeling..ang gutso ko lang ngaun eh umuwi nlng at magpahinga.. mukang magiging sobrang dugo ng bakasyon ko ha, at limited lang ang mga gimik..so it means HELL ang buong May ko, nagun mapapanis na ang laway ko, eto pa naman ng "most-hated-feeling-in-the-world" ko.. yeah mas first pa sa heartbreak.. grabe, sobra. naiiyak nko.. tas wala pa sya sa tabi ko kaya mas lalo akong mahina....blah,blah,blah..
and the story goes on... ayan, ive noticed na ilang beses kong naulit ang "gusto ko nang umuwi" which is tlgang gusto ko na..haha.. but now.. mm..medyo at ease nko, medyo lang.. im still making a few adjustments sa oldie world na kinalalagyan ko.. after a few days, naisip ko nang.. "ano naman kung alone ako kumain sa cafeteria?! they wont see me na namn after a month eh,so ok lang..aun, goodthing ung department im in, were very jolly and accomodating people.. (oh man, i prayed for that.) di tulad sa kabila,, hehe..they're good nmn pro hindi lng sila ganun ka accomodating at times.. uhm, so aun, office girl nko,.. i thnk i could cope up with it nmn for the mean time, at least this pre-occupies me..and keeps me busy..haay, so much for living this life.. so full of complexities, but then im still thankful for it. *wink* Ü♥